I was born in the middle of America. My mother was of Cherokee descent and my father, a flaming Irishman. I can remember always “knowing” things, even as child. It was confusing for me, because I found that many things around me just didn’t seem to “fit”. I would frequently find myself wondering why my parents did or believed certain things.
When I was 3 1/2 years old we lived on the island of Adak for about a year and a half. At the time, Adak was a Navy island located in the Aleutian chain off the coast of Alaska. It’s truly the middle of nowhere, about 700-800 miles from the tip of Russia. It’s wet, cold, strange and mysterious and the earth quakes up to 14 times a week. Its silence is deafening. It’s a place where you can see forever. I believe that my inner soul began its journey on that island.
My early years were fraught with insecurity and wandering, trying to find the real me along with deeper more important connections that I knew had to be there. What a very long journey that has been.
Those insecure years made me search for more answers. There is an answer for everything in the Universe. It may take time to find it, but it is there.
Through study and meditation I began to realize that my inner self had been trying to break through all my life. The weird feelings, tremendous uneasiness and anxiety began to speak to me instead of torture me. The relief was immeasurable. I knew I had to find a way to take my discovery out to those who sought the relief I had found. There are so many of us out there. So I began to teach what I call an Inner Development Series. I love it. I’ve seen people grow by leaps and bounds as a result of a little bit of trust and effort.
My bottomless love of music led me to major in that subject in college. Music always has and always will nurture and feed me. I create and use tones that I feel are healing and soothing in my audio meditations. I offer the meditations as my gift here.
It took me many years to realize that I had a gift in the area of clairvoyance. It wasn’t until I was in my thirties that I began to pay particular attention to that. Even then it was a friend that clued me in to my gift.
I’ve spent the last 30 years as a professional Clairvoyant. I’ve consulted with people of all walks of life, including Doctors, Corporate Executives, Lawyers, Teachers, Film & Television Producers, Actors, Housewives and Entrepreneurs etc.
I formed a very unique group of Sensitives that work from time to time on missing children’s cases and was on the board of directors for the United Sensitives of America. But I get the most gratification teaching others to find that “thing” inside of them that knows the truth, and knows what to do in any given situation. It changes everything for them as it did for me.
For decades I was a single mother. Raising my son and daughter has been the greatest privilege of my entire life.
Later in life, I met and married the man of my dreams...my true soul mate. He was a creative genius, an Emmy winner and prolific writer and producer of some of the world’s most successful and beloved television shows.
Suddenly and unexpectedly my precious soul mate died in my arms on April 23, 2017 and my world crashed like a meteor striking earth at epic speed.
I am a spiritual seeker. My beloved Chris was a spiritual seeker. I know that the pain of losing him couldn’t be so cutting if the life we were given together hadn’t be so amazing. So I have to know how blessed I was to have him here with me. He visits me often. Our love and relationship continues.
I believe that we are all blessed with the ability to “know”. I also believe we are here to love and support one another, and to learn from one another.
My life took a very big turn when I decided to use my inner gifts publicly.
“In Jewish history there are no coincidences.”
~Elie Wiesel
The history of the Jewish people is old, winding and full of life. Their history of contemplating the Divine is a deep and endless well overflowing with insight and wisdom.
Many Jews believe the Divine is so profound that uttering or writing the name of G-d does an injustice to the breadth of the existence of the same. In appreciation for their thoughtful devotion, I will honor them by also not completing a written version of the name of G-d here.
I’ve chosen to quote Elie Wiesel above because the seemingly simple statement he made goes so much further than the words he uttered.
Elie Wiesel was a Romanian born Jew. He was a Holocaust survivor. He authored some 57 books. He was a professor and political activist and a Nobel Peace Prize recipient. And those are just the tip of the iceberg.
Mr. Wiesel was not only actively involved in Jewish matters, but he spent his entire life crusading on behalf of human rights around the world. Look him up on Wikipedia. He was a sterling example of the best of the best.
Given his journey through the degradation of the Auschwitz and Buchenwald concentration camps, how is it he can say that there are no coincidences in Jewish history? What did he really mean?
Perhaps he was referencing the way a person walks on his/her path, rather than the path itself. How do we behave in difficult circumstances? When things get really tough, what is our thought process?
In the life and mind of a person of deep devotion, what’s happening is much less important that how we participate in it. How many of us are able to keep our minds focused on something so much greater than all the little pieces flying around us daily.
There must be more to circumstance than just….circumstance. What is it that is speaking through the fog of such darkness and density?
A human being like Elie Wiesel knows how to survive the worst kind of torment a person can experience. He not only survived, he came out as a man of principle, grace and goodness. He didn’t fold into the swamp of bitterness and hatred that had tortured his mind, body and soul. He didn’t give in when everything he had was taken….everything. Why?
Perhaps because he knew that there is purpose in everything. In realizing the purpose of his dark walk with the devil, he brought light to his fellow brothers and sisters around the world. His devotion and determination was palpable.
There is subtlety in his statement. How do we know when G-d is speaking to us? Look around. Don’t take anything as coincidence. It’s up to us to find the message. The Divine is only anonymous if we aren’t paying attention.
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